I’ve never been particularly good at dealing with personal disappointment or failure, and today is no exception. Had all gone to plan, I would have just finished the Adidas Silverstone Half Marathon.
The Plan
Just having finished the Silverstone Half Marathon 2010, and in under two hours I’m elated. Surrounded by friends we go out to lunch to celebrate. Training continued to be fun, if gruelling and I learned that I really could put my mind to something and not give up.
The Reality
Er, yes, where was I? Oh, yes, at home, in bed feeling distinctly sorry for myself. Having suffered from a sore hip and knee over the last few weeks I’d been forced to vastly curtail my training so things weren’t looking too positive, but, I was still planning to attempt the race in whatever condition I was in. (I could walk it! Yes!) I don’t like giving up, didn’t want to let anyone down, nor see the last four months of hard work effectively go to waste. Fast forward to this week and me promptly falling ill and retreating under the duvet. That was that.
Onwards and Upwards
Disappointed in myself. I gave up, see? Failure. But even in the most stubborn of moments I would have had to admit defeat today. No use going into my first half marathon with a knee injury, and a mild case of the flu. I must put the frustration, disappointment and anger behind me. This is something to learn from, and not something that will get the better of me. There are (far) worse things in life! (Suppose I should stop pouting then…)
The Coventry Half Marathon is on the 23rd of May and I will be more than ready. 69 days to get it right, to be in the best shape of my life, and to smile. Here I go!
